i hate the fact....

i hate the fact i am leaving this school. its always been hard for me to find a place where i feel comfortable and fit in, and the students i have met so far have made me feel so welcome. i have loved all my teachers and actually enjoyed attending my classes. i dont want to go. for me this is the school i have always dreamed of going. it has everything i love doing, but sadly it was not meant to be. i had a realization a few months ago, that even though i loved art i loved creating it more because it was not a job and in todays world money is needed. and i know that if i go into graphic design, game design i will begin to hate what i love doing as a way to calm myself. thankfully it is a happy ending. i decided to go into another passion of mine that i could never see myself hating because i do not use it as a form of relaxation or relief: criminolgy. i want to go into some field of law where i can either study the mind of criminals, people, talk to people and help them (there is not one person who thinks i should be anything else but a psychiatrist or-ologist). maybe a social worker, work with mentally disabled children, etc... even though columbia has been amazing and i would do anything to make it into the school i need to go to, to become a criminologist, i have to go. the people were amazing and the teachers were great. i really am for the first time going to miss someplace, and it's a weird experience.